God, when I watched ER the other day, I wanted to be a doctor so bad! haha.

Stethoscopes, white coats, meeting the needs of the people immediately. That is so cool.

But if I were to think of doing this without You, God, how foolish I was!

And that thought did cross my mind!

"If I were to be a doctor, working in a hospital... nice salary... you look professional... people respect you..."

But the holy spirit literally knocked that thought out of my head.

"You can never do this without God. You can't even get to med school without Him. What were you thinking? He will give you all you need if you obey and follow Him-- to go where He sends you to, not to where you want Him to follow you to. Not to have people respect you so that you can feel good about youself, but so that people will come to know and stand in awe of Him. This is about Him, not you."

"And if you ever think you can do this without Me, without seeking my face for directions, your dream job of being a doctor will really be a dream."

Yes, God. I really deserved that scolding. Super kai ma.

So small, yet so ya ya.

God, please constantly wake up my idea.