Saturday, September 17, 2005 ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

i have said this too many times.
how can i forget Your awesome presence so easily?
how can i be so selfish with Your love in my life?
how can i ignore you?
why do i repay Your goodness with such ingratitude?
why do i keep pushing you away?
why do i suppress that nudging voice deep in me?
why can't i just open my mouth?
why am i so stubborn?
why do i keep receiving, but am unwilling to give?
why do i make a choice simply not to share?
You and i both know that i am not as spiritual as they think i am.
i am a selfish coward.
i don't want to stay that way.
oh God. give me a break through.
I've let You down enough times.
It's time to obey You every time you tell me to.
Although it's hard and scares me so,
A life without You scares me more.
Help, dear Lord. I can't do this on my own.

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